crushed?

This is definately a personal post. Anyway lets do this.
Despite my best effort to woo her (from poetry, to serious vybe lines, to watching for all the "signs") she said no!! The first few seconds after hearing those words I tasted the bile in my mouth, was speechless I tried my best to control myself and say something...anything!!! but I basically chocked. No tears were shed All I could do is to walk away before I said something I'd later regret.
Thank God she was honest instead of stringing me along like others might.
Now the big question is ? am I crushed am I moping down in the dumps?
No I'm not. Oddly enough I feel like a weight has been pulled outta my mind. I feel refreshed by the fact that even though she doesnt feel the same way, I am glad that I was fully honest with her.
Does it hurt? yes quite abit. but i'm now cool.
Tomas lives on