Monday, January 30, 2012

This is war

Tha daggers have been drawn the paint has been applied; Fuck it's even been splashed on. This is not going to be pretty. I am getting ready for war.

This is classic David against Goliath. The good thing about my opponent is that he feels he as more power then he actually does. This is because I have not been known to be confrontational. I feel bad for him. He should have picked on someone else. Oh well he picked me and crossed a line that I never let people cross without chopping off their foot.

I might sound cocky, but I am well aware that this is not going to be an easy fight. It'll be bloody difficult. the chances of my success are slim at best. However, as long as they exist I know I can pull of a surprise victory. Surprise to the world, not so much to me.

I cannot afford to fight his way, it's too expensive. I can't stick to the trenches, i'll find myself fighting a losing battle. I must use the tools most handy to me; my wits and the system. Make his enemies my friends, have that mutual purpose to see him go down without seeming to do so in the first place. This is a tough nut to crack. It could take months, but I am mentally ready to do it!!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Between a pillow and a soft place

It is said you never know the value of a thing until you lose it. I cannot begin to say how much I appreciate the company of my fellow man. In this context the word man refers to the male gender of the species and not mankind in general.
I have been stuck in the office for a few weeks now with a bunch of women, and had it not been for the beautiful invention we call earphones, I  would have lost my sanity. There are more women than men in the office and the other dude in the office is currently on leave. Such a lucky man. I am all alone in this office world.
Why am I losing my mind? Well, that's rather obvious. Every day I am in the office, the conversation rotates around, dresses, make up, cooking, male bashing and other shit like that. I cannot stand to hear another word about how this colour matches with that or that Mr' X did this and that that makes him the devil. Nooo this is not a good thing for any man to go through. I call it cruel and unjust punishment. I shall be asking my employer for a hardship allowance next salary review. [It seems so far away]
The other day, they were asking me what I thought about one of their dresses. I declined to comment. The backlash was swift and vicious. Apparently I am jealous. Jealous of a dress? Please!!!
First of all why was my opinion being sought on dressing. Get a boyfriend or one of your girls to comment on your outfits; not me. I do not care. I never have, and probably never will. [Breathe]
I would only comment on a friend's outfit where I believe they look beautiful. Case in point Lady M. And people should stop fishing for comments, if an outfit is that good I shall say something about it. If not....
I have nothing against women, I think they are lovely. That is why I am always pursuing one or another. they bring a certain beauty to life that no man ever can. But, there is only so much that I can take.

Monday, January 09, 2012

good guys finish last... what about the DNF's

There is a belief in the world that I live in that good guys finish last.... and the bad boys come first.
However the statement should not be taken as truth. I am coming to realise that there are guys that don't finish at all. To them the race might as well not be run.

These are the dudes that fill in the numbers. They are loved by all women; just enough to be their friends. They are then disillusioned into a sense of comfort as these women get close to them and share their hopes, dreams and aspirations. These dudes are lulled into a foolish comfort that there is something actually going on. If only they knew. Before long the dude starts to getting feelings for the lady in his life and after a few weeks of holding it back, decides to declare his heart's desire.

The girl decides to mull over it for a few days before they finally meet to "talk" She starts off with a talk about how she loves spending time with him etc etc finally she says she doesn't feel the same way about him, but that he's a nice guy etc. Of course he hears nothing from this point on.

Now this has happens to virtually every dude on the planet. Luckily some meet someone who feels the same way as them sooner rather than later. However, there are others for whom this becomes a constant cycle... And their lives get really fucked up!! The worst bit is they still remain the charming gentle men that they are... You'd rather be a pig that eats swill than a prancing pony that dies of hunger.

This is probably the reason I have been eliminating female friends from my life. I don't want any more of this coffee and lunch date shit on the regular.... I don't want to be "that guy"!! The nice one who listens to female problems. No thank you. I'd rather be the lone wolf.

No offense ladies, but I think you use guys a bit too much. If you want a male friend, find a boyfriend or talk to your brother. Leave the poor suckers alone. You needing them will just fuck them up!

Thursday, January 05, 2012

what am I doing?

This week I have made several mistakes and they seem to compound itself. The most crucial is with lady M. I seek to redress those ills tomorrow, when I see her. I pray all goes well.

However this post is not abou that, but rather the situation I find myself in. A pal of mine who I worked with recently got a new job. It's a good job, nice benefits etc. The best part is that they are earning 3 times what I make. 3 TIMES!!! Fuck me!!!
Moments like these make me wonder whether I took the wrong path in life. However, when I think hard about it, I wouldn't do the job that they are doing. I can't be paid enough (I can, but let's not go there). It seems that some people have raced off and are travelling at 100 Km/hr while I'm stuck behind a slow lorry doing 30.
I am encouraged by the words of a very successful man that I know. He says that at some point in our lives, we all have to pay our dues. Go through a seemingly hard spell that will teach us valuable lessons for the success that comes later on. However, this will only be of use to us if we don't give up. We need to keep pushing through for what we want.
We all want to be successful in life; to say otherwise would be a lie. The truth about success in life is that it's not about the money we make, or what we own or control. Moreover, greater success is to be found in intrinsic things such as the wealth and depth of the relationship we have with family and friends. Our spiritual well being and enjoying good health.
but another truth is that money is one of the ways people keep score to know how well they are doing. And on this front I would like to be ahead. I won't lie about it.

Tuesday, January 03, 2012

tell a tale

Happy 2012 readers

I write this from a slightly inebriated state... Yes I am well aware that today is the 3rd of January. I return to work tomorrow. (tongue out!!)
I sat down and tried to recall all the times I have walked up to a lady and told her that I liked her.  In my opinion it is the single most difficult thing I have had to do. Over and over again. I hope I have done it for the last time now. It get tiring being rejected/or

Her name is M. She is Amazing.What's so good about her?
Beauty? Check
Brains? Check
Wit? check
Do my friends like her? Check
Do I like her? Double check....
Today I told her that I like her. It was an awkward moment like I think it is meant to be. I wanted to do it sooner, but I couldn't. I chickened out, the silly punk that I am. Now I await a response. I shall call her this evening and see the progress.
Right now I am sprung harder than a mouse trap!!!

That reminds me. B shall read this post and want to kill me. I shall speak to her soon too!!