Tuesday, November 27, 2012

I know how I got here and I do not want to leave

I have often been in denial of the things that I do when I am in relationships or when I am into someone. Once the initial dust settles I often look into the mirror and ask myself who I have turned into. I surprise myself every single time with what I am willing to go through for the girl I am into.

However, with Lady M this is slightly different, and that is a good thing; a very good thing. I am into Lady M; a person whom I honestly could not have imagined being with. Not that I did not try, I did. But there was a time it was dead, finished, not even on the rocks or shipwrecked. The ship had not even left port. It is literally by the grace of God that today I can call her my girlfriend. :-)

It does not surprise me the things I am willing to do and go through for her. I amaze myself that I can instantly turn into a ball of mushiness when I am with her, but I am not surprised, and if you ever get to know her you shall realise this;  there is something very special about her. And until today I do not know what. I can't quite put my finger on it or express it. It's more than an emotion, more than I can put into words, something that I have experienced with her.

At first it was her looks that captivated me. I was completely taken by her. You cannot help but notice that that beauty goes much deeper than her beautiful smile or those captivating eyes that light up when she is happy. Or the small sigh she makes when she is completely ecstatic. (I will never forget the time you drove us to Limuru. That was an amazing day)

After being captured by her beauty, I was further pulled in by her mystery. I got the feeling that there was much more to her than I initially saw. Like she was this completely different side of her. Don't get me wrong, she isn't two faced, she is deep.

But there are many people that I know that are deep, I being one of them. However, I came to realise that it is not just her depth that makes her special, It is something more. It is the experience with her. She is like a drug, a taste of life with her and I got addicted. It is this person called Lady M

the person who cares for people way much more than normal people do. 
the artist who pains beautiful pictures in her mind and occasionally puts them down on paper.
the lady, who doesn't need to raise her voice to win a fight.
the person who still enjoys watching club kiboko on a random Saturday morning
the person who is totally taken by a waterfall and nature's beauty
the lady who enjoys hot chocolate at a simple cafe over a espresso at a big hotel
the lady who is allowed to be completely selfish with her life, but has given more of herself than most people will ever know.
who can survive life's nuclear bombs and come out smelling of roses.
the person I have lost countless bets to and even when they are all paid back, I will still owe for the joy of paying them back.

This is the amazing woman that I am falling in love with. I asked for her. I prayed to God for her and when the time was right we were together. That is why I say I know how I got here and I do not want to leave

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